It's always going to be interesting when the first-time-dad is left to provide childcare. I was given instructions to "make him happy."
And it made me realize that maybe Sebby really isn't capable at 13 months of age to make himself happy. There are extremely short glimmers of it every once in a while when he is playing by himself. And it misleads me. But he pretty much he has to rely on his caregiver for happiness and enjoyment.
It's crazy how that skill is foundational for a human.
You MUST be able to make yourself happy.
Somehow, someway, you have to figure it out for yourself. You sure as hell didn't get asked to be brought into this world, but you're stuck now. It's my responsibility to do the best I can to teach you how to make the best of it. I can give you some tools. But somehow you have to figure out how to make yourself happy without a dependency of something or someone else. Do it and you will have, by my calculations, about 51% of your short existence figured out.
My name is Dae Yu.